Ma vie en Suisse

Ma vie en Suisse

En fin. I have arrived in Switzerland. It took awhile. About a year in fact. And it’s been a helluva journey. At the beginning of last year, I didn’t know Switzerland was my destination. I just knew that my life wasn’t what I wanted it to be.

In California, I felt like I was on the Titanic. I had almost a decade of decisions and momentum behind me and I could see the iceberg, I just couldn’t turn fast enough to avoid a disaster. (How’s that for a life metaphor?)

Regardless, in February 2009, I made the decision to leave California. That decision was tough for many reasons–most of them pretty personal–too personal for my blog (if you can believe that!). It was a tough decision none-the-less. Last May, my good friend from Yellowknife came down and helped me pack up my studio and kick my butt back to Canada.  (If that isn’t a good friend, I don’t know who is). We headed up to Alberta for my nephew’s graduation and my cousin’s wedding at the end of May.

I remember sitting at my Aunt’s kitchen table in Red Deer one weekend. When she asked how I was doing, I said: “I’m just surviving Auntie Ann. I am just surviving.”

And she just looked directly at me and said, rather pointedly: “It’s all a decision Jennifer. It’s all just a decision.”

And I realized it was exactly that. I wasn’t making many decisions. I had made some decisions. I even knew why I was making them. But, right then, right there in her kitchen, I realized I didn’t seem to be making the right decisions. To top it off, I was making decisions that seemed to benefit everybody around me, and none that benefited me.

I’d planned a trip to France for the month of June. I wanted some time off. Some perspective. (THAT was a decision to benefit me 🙂 )

I was expecting to visit a few friends. I was expecting to have a holiday. I was expecting to get some perspective. I was expecting to return to Canada and Alberta and maybe even the Yukon to start a new life.

I visited Normandy and the D-Day beaches with my parents. I visited a friend from when I went to University in France. And, I visited a friend and former colleague from Turin Networks. We had a lovely time that week. We visited. We connected. Day-after-day, my friend seemed to challenge me to make some real decisions. To make a plan. And execute it.

So I did.

I made a six-month plan. It took me seven months to execute.  Granted, even though my goals were pretty clear,  I was pretty fuzzy on the how.  I had a lot of loose ends to finish (that’s a quilting reference for my mum).  And I needed to finish them by myself. I still have a few things to do.

But mainly, I am here. I am back in Switzerland. My friend (now fiance) and I decided we wanted to be in each other’s lives and I needed to be here so we could start.

To my friends and family who haven’t met him yet–please meet my fiance. His name is Ludovic. He is my bear.

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  1. I love Switzerland. It is the land of my people. Where exactly are you in Switzerland?

    Congratulations on your engagement. He looks like a wonderful man.


    That’s fantastic news, Jenn. Congratulations. Kind and handsome!

    You’ve made my day. I was just about to procrastinate some more in fixing my daughter’s shirt for tomorrow (school uniform), when I thought, I’ll just see what Jenn is doing. And, then I thought well, what if I load the page, and I see that sausage in the purse again. I really should be mending the shirt. Well, obviously, just having a peak at your blog was the right way to go this evening.

    And, so – When? Where?

  3. Thanks guys. It’s been a long road. We don’t know when or where yet. Just that we are–and that’s an important decision.

    I’m so very excited.

  4. Hi Jen,

    Congrats to you, I hope you will be very happy, you deserve it. I am sitting here with tears running down my face, hoping no one comes into my office after reading this post. I sounded so harsh, I guess sometimes I say things without thinking of the impact they have on people. Always know that we love you and are here for you. Take Care